Leaving in just three days

Its weird to think I’ve been waiting for this all year. I never really doubted that is get in and then now, were getting ready to leave. Tomorrow I’m doing a presentation in class on the introduction of Christianity to Ireland and how the monasteries that were subsequently built are important to Irish history. I don’t know quite how far through history the professor wanted me to go so in hope I haven’t gone too far. Then on Tuesday I am taking a history quiz and a quiz on the counties of Ireland. I also have to turn in what is the first installment of an Irish nationalism paper, which is really hard to do when you don’t have a computer so I’m going up to the school library to type it up.
In other news I am almost fully packed for Ireland. I just have to decide if I’m taking my one dress in case we go somewhere nice, and I need to find a way to pack one of my towels.
There’s something unnerving about the fact that I’m going too. Its like this end is finally here. When I get back I graduate.


New Theme

So tomorrow is St.Nicholas Day and I am excited. Since the holiday doesn’t fall on a weekend I’m not home this year for it but I can’t wait to go home to see what will be there. Mum has already decorated the house and this was the first year I didn’t get to go home to help them pick out a tree. It’s scary to think that next year I might be going to pick out my own tree for Christmas at my apartment and that I’m going to have to decorate by myself… Maybe Harrison could help me though, that would be nice to do it with him.

We have a meeting tomorrow night for the Ireland trip, more technical details and stuff from Kim. Paperwork to fill out and stuff like that. It’s gonna be nice to finally get down to basics with this. I’m so excited about the trip. And people I know are all going to the same time so I wont feel odd and out of place. I’m always worried about that, feeling out of place or like I don’t belong, but I think this is going to be better because I know people on the trip really well and am close to them. But it’s still hard to feel like I completely fit in. Who knows.

Christmas is an odd time for me because I love the holiday but it is so hard to celebrate when I’m here because I want to celebrate with my friends and all that but I still want to celebrate with my family too. It’s almost too much. I don’t know.

The year is coming to a close and it’s strange. We only have 26 days left in the year which is so odd. Ireland is coming up and them graduation and then… I don’t know. It’s all too much but it’s exciting and terrifying at the same time. Just wow.


Flights are being scheduled, or our seats have been put ‘on hold’ as Kim told us. This is getting all the more real and I’m getting more and more excited.

I hate flying, that’s the down side to my love of traveling, of my desire to go any and everywhere. I hate heights and I am kind of claustrophobic, neither of which help with flying. This time though I’ll be able to sit next to Harrison and grip his hand as we take off and as we land. That in itself will help me so much. I didn’t have that last year on the way to England and I nearly had a panic attack.

Our flight doesn’t take off until almost three, then it’s a two hour flight to Newark, then a seven hour or so flight to Shannon, Ireland (although to us it’ll seem like more since we’ll be landing at 7.30 am their time). The time difference might kill me a little but it’ll still be fine as long as I can stay awake the first day. I doubt I’ll have any problem with that because I’ll be so excited to be there. And I might actually get sleep on the flight with Harrison there, he’ll maybe be able to calm me down. The rest of the groups energy might keep me awake though, I don’t know. We’ll see when we leave. We still have 5 months and 9 days but scheduling the flight makes it seem closer.

We only had to set that all up because we’re flying with 22 people. A big group needs to be scheduled in early or we’d have to pay a ton and couldn’t get seats in the same area (most likely). It’s odd to think that this group is so much smaller than the group that went to England last spring, nearly 10 more people on this one. But it’ll be nice, I already know that I like a lot of the people going so I doubt that I’ll have a problem.

If Dreisbach allows us to choose our roommates for at least half of the trip I think I’ll room with Amanda. We get along well and share some interests, and we’d be able to just talk about our excitements too. I know I’m gonna be taking a shit ton of pictures and writing a lot while I’m there and she’s the kind of person who’ll be able to respect that I need some quiet to do that. And even if Dreisbach doesn’t let us choose roommates I feel like I know a good amount of the people going that I’d be able to get along with almost everyone if not everyone on the trip.

I’ll try and update this too while we’re over there, sending things from my phone whenever I can get a wireless connection. I feel like I’ll be able to find some place to do that at least every couple of days. If not I can save stuff on Evernote and just post them when we get back.

Fall semester has four weeks and a couple days left, then Winter break and the Spring semester begins. Once that happens class meeting for the Ireland Class will begin and I will officially freak out. So excited now, I don’t know what I will be like once it’s actually time to go.

Why I desire to travel…

I guess this is a question I should have expected to catch up with me eventually, but although I have wanted to travel all of my life, I still do not have a definite answer as to why that is. As a child the most travel I did was going to Disney in Florida every summer until I was around thirteen or fourteen when we started going to Charleston, South Carolina instead. These trips were fun for me, Disney more than anything just because every year was different and things were changing, or I was able to ride something one year that I hadn’t been able to the previous. When we started going to Charleston things were different though. I still enjoyed the trips but every year was just like the last and though I liked the scenery and the ocean, I got tired of it all quite quickly.

I wouldn’t say that these trips were what caused my desire to travel, because though I found pleasure in those trips most of the time, I never really wanted to go on them. The places I’ve wanted to go to are places like England and Ireland, Scotland and France, places throughout the European world. Maybe some Eastern Asian countries too. I’ve always had a desire to travel to places that were so outside of my comfort zone, where I would be so separated from all that I know.

So why do I want to travel? I don’t know. Maybe to see the places where my family is from, where I can trace my heritage and ancestry to. Maybe to explore ancient places which cannot exist in the United States because all traces of Native American land has been wiped out for years because of the Colonists. Maybe it’s just because I want to prove to myself that the people of the world are better then those who are in the headlines for horrible acts and that human’s still have some strip of humanity left within them.

Maybe I will never know why I want to travel, but I know that I do and I know that I will, I will travel as much and for as long as I can.


I think that I might buy the books if not before the three week, then when I buy books for the twelve week. I’ll need them most likely when we start having our meetings so I might as well get them early. I would also just like to look through a bunch of them. I don’t know. I feel like I’m getting ahead of myself with all of this preparing but what else am I supposed to do. Getting ready for one class gets my mind off of all the things I have to do for ones that are already going on.

I guess I always get ahead of myself in these kind of things. Oh well. No stopping me now.