To the boyfriend I had before, gone. Dumped me with no warning two days after my birthday. Yeah, classy kind of guy. I was shit for a while but I’m better now. One of the people who really helped me through that time and was the best friend I could ask for then, is now my boyfriend. The transition from one man to the other kinda freaked me out and in the beginning it was awkward because I had feelings for two men. The one who broke my heart, and the one who was helping put me back together. It took some time but now I’m really happy again.
Ireland was great but the memories are nothing compared to my trip to England. I feel I actually would have had a better long term opinion of the Ireland trip if I hadn’t gone with my boyfriend at the time. In England I was kind of on my own. I did my own thing and bonded with new people, people I might have had no other reason to be friends with. In Ireland I tagged along with Harrison and my friend Noah, Noah’s friend, and Harrison’s friend. I was always hanging out with them while in England I hung out with a bunch of people and spent time with almost everyone from the trip.
It’s because of this that I want to go back to both Ireland and England, but on my own. I want to explore in a way I wasn’t able to, especially with Ireland. I think I wanted Ireland to be more than the trip allowed it to be because that nation means so much to me and to my sense of identity.
It’s been 9 months since I graduated and I’m still not quite sure about this whole “Adult” thing. I’m still trying to put it off for as long as I can muster. I was in a place by myself for a couple months, but then got a two bedroom with a friend from college. Things were a little rocky at first but they’re starting to even out. I don’t think I’ll stay in a two bedroom once the lease is up. I’ll go back to a one bedroom by myself cause there were definite bonus’s to being on my own completely. I’ll talk to him about it closer to when the lease is up (Nov.) so I give him time to find a different place.
I’ve been working all of those 9 months, with a company which makes an “all-in-one” audiobook platform. A little mp3 player device which is one book per player. They’re an odd concept for the normal person but libraries and schools get a lot out of them. I’m really liking it here. The people are great and I’m starting to be okay with the monotony of the actual work. It’s a great place to be and I’m liking this as my first forray into the “real world”.
So over all, had some down spots around the mid summer and was incredibly pissed, heartbroken, depressed. Around Sept. that changed and now I’m back to being pretty damn good.
Let’s see where it goes from here.